When the waiting is hard

Six months. 

It's been six months since the first phone call was made.

Six months since the first meeting.

Six months since the papers were signed and it became official. 

Six months since we took that step of faith. 

Six months...and we are still here!

I'm not going to lie, trying to sell our house has been stressful. Showing after showing I tell myself not to get too excited and too expectant, but it is so hard. So hard not to think that this one person may be it! I am ready to move on. Ready for the next step. Ready to look for our house in the country with trees in the yard where a tire swing can hang! Where my kids can play freely. Where my dogs can run all day! Where {maybe} we can get some chickens and a few goats or sheep! Where we can start living out the rest of our dreams. 

After our most current showing, which was Sunday, I wept. The stress of hearing another, "it's too small", or "they didn't like that it was on-street parking" had finally taken it's toll. I stood by my kitchen sink with the cool breeze blowing my hair all around and let the tears come. I cried out to God for His strength because I was losing mine. I was losing my faith. 

I'm not sure how long I stood there weeping before my husband came in and placed his arms around me. He hates to see me so upset, but immediately he knew why. It was a comfort I needed, just having him hold me. His reassurance that everything was going to work out was kind, but hadn't helped. I was sick of hearing that. Sick of people telling me that it was just not the right time, or the right people! Sick of waiting! 

I want it to be the right time! I want the right people to finally walk through my front door and say "we'll take it"! I want my children to have their own rooms and I want a closet of my own.  I want, I want, I want, I, I, I! 

I have forgotten! I have lost focus! It is not about what I want and when! And how long have I known this? It is all about His time! His perfect timing and perfect will are all part of His perfect plan! 

But it is hard...waiting! Trusting and believing! A new babe on the way has added to the stress of it. Thankfully, she can sleep soundly next to mama's bed for a while, but there will come a time when she will outgrow that little bed and need a place of her own. Then what? In a two bedroom home, our options are limited. I have all this and more swarming around in my head and I just want it to go! I want to put it all to the side and think only on Him and what He has planned for us! Why is that so hard? Why do we put ourselves through unnecessary stresses when He has it all under control?

Why is it so hard to let go and let God? 

Behold, we consider those blessed who remained steadfast. You have heard of the steadfastness of Job, and you have seen the purpose of the Lord, how the Lord is compassionate and merciful. ~ James 5:11

"When I was waiting quietly for the Lord, His heart was turned to me, and He gave ear to my cry." Psalms 40:1

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Friends, I would really appreciate some prayers right now! Prayers that I remain faithful and trusting in the One who has given me all...everything! Prayers to have this burden lifted and the stress of it gone! In Jesus Name!