Thursday, April 19, 2012

When the waiting is hard

Six months. 
It's been six months since the first phone call was made.
Six months since the first meeting.
Six months since the papers were signed and it became official
Six months since we took that step of faith. 
Six months...and we are still here!

I'm not going to lie, trying to sell our house has been stressful. Showing after showing I tell myself not to get too excited and too expectant, but it is so hard. So hard not to think that this one person may be it! I am ready to move on. Ready for the next step. Ready to look for our house in the country with trees in the yard where a tire swing can hang! Where my kids can play freely. Where my dogs can run all day! Where {maybe} we can get some chickens and a few goats or sheep! Where we can start living out the rest of our dreams. 

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After our most current showing, which was Sunday, I wept. The stress of hearing another, "it's too small", or "they didn't like that it was on-street parking" had finally taken it's toll. I stood by my kitchen sink with the cool breeze blowing my hair all around and let the tears come. I cried out to God for His strength because I was losing mine. I was losing my faith. 

I'm not sure how long I stood there weeping before my husband came in and placed his arms around me. He hates to see me so upset, but immediately he knew why. It was a comfort I needed, just having him hold me. His reassurance that everything was going to work out was kind, but hadn't helped. I was sick of hearing that. Sick of people telling me that it was just not the right time, or the right people! Sick of waiting! 

I want it to be the right time! I want the right people to finally walk through my front door and say "we'll take it"! I want my children to have their own rooms and I want a closet of my own.  I want, I want, I want, I, I, I

I have forgotten! I have lost focus! It is not about what I want and when! And how long have I known this? It is all about His time! His perfect timing and perfect will are all part of His perfect plan! 

But it is hard...waiting! Trusting and believing! A new babe on the way has added to the stress of it. Thankfully, she can sleep soundly next to mama's bed for a while, but there will come a time when she will outgrow that little bed and need a place of her own. Then what? In a two bedroom home, our options are limited. I have all this and more swarming around in my head and I just want it to go! I want to put it all to the side and think only on Him and what He has planned for us! Why is that so hard? Why do we put ourselves through unnecessary stresses when He has it all under control?

Why is it so hard to let go and let God? 

Behold, we consider those blessed who remained steadfast. You have heard of the steadfastness of Job, and you have seen the purpose of the Lord, how the Lord is compassionate and merciful. ~ James 5:11

"When I was waiting quietly for the Lord, His heart was turned to me, and He gave ear to my cry." Psalms 40:1

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Friends, I would really appreciate some prayers right now! Prayers that I remain faithful and trusting in the One who has given me all...everything! Prayers to have this burden lifted and the stress of it gone! In Jesus Name! 





13 comments:

  1. Amy have you tried a new Realtor? I know they make a big diffrence in selling a house. The right person will come! Just have faith!

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    1. Oh how I wish we could get a new realtor, but we are under a 1 year contract! :(

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  2. Amy,

    I cried right alone with you as I read your post. I know the struggle. Every night the kids pray for the Lord to send someone to buy our house and I put on my brave face and tell them that the Lord is in control and it will happen in his time and not ours...then I tuck them in, leave their room and cry. As my family goes through this tough time of not seeing daddy and sickening amounts in the gas tank each month, I feel like He has broken me down as much as I can be. I can hostly say, as hard as this has been though over the past 9 months, it has been a blessing. God is teaching me everyday and pushing me to new levels I didn't know I could go. I am not saying it is easy! I cry as I type you this, I just repeat Phil. 4:6 to myself and thank God for the struggle that he is using to strengthen me and my family. I don't know the plan he has for my family or yours, but I do know that when I look around me and see all that he has blessed me with I am humbled and amazed. Why has he been so good to me?! I can't wait to see what he has planned for us next, as scary as the unknown is.

    A few verses came across in my devotions yesterday and really struck me that I had to write them down and highlight a few parts. Maybe it will be of encouragement to you as well, 2 Cor. 12:7-10. (My Bible has notes on the bottom and boy were the notes right on for me and what I needed!)

    Your family has been in my families prayers and we will continue to pray for your family.

    -Mindy
    (Sorry so long! :))

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    1. Thank you Mindy! I so wish this was something that was a lot easier...sometimes I wish we would have just rented, but then I come back to reality and realize how awful that would have been! After writing out my little vent here yesterday, I actually felt better. I love the community that blogging provides for I know that I can trust the prayers of those that say they are praying! And I in return am praying for you guys as well! :)

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  3. Good Morning Amy Sweetie...
    Oh honey I can feel your pain this morning. You are definitely in my prayers. I have been silently sitting here storming the heavens with prayers for you and your family. Sometimes it is so hard as a Christian to understand why the waiting, why the pain, why the worries, why the trials? I have been there sweet friend and I know the journey is hard. Sometimes we just want to give up. God makes us stronger with each day. He is preparing us for what lies ahead. This I know.

    I will add you to my prayer list dear one. That house in the country is out there just waiting for the right time. Maybe yours cannot sell right now, as the house in the country is not ready for your family. Prayers,prayers and more prayers sweetie.

    Keep me posted. I am wiping those tears for you as they fall. Many hugs and so much love, Sherry

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    1. Thank you Sherry so very much for your prayers! It is so comforting to know that God sends prayer warriors our way when we need them the most!

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  4. Hey sweet friend!!

    I am no stranger to wanting and wishing and waiting; no stranger to tears and struggle and temper tantrums.

    It's no comfort, but when the time is right the buyer will come for your house, which means you can then find the house meant for you. It could be that the house He has planned for you hasn't been listed it - or that the people who will want your house are just starting to look.

    His plan is perfect - we sometimes just have to wait on His time.

    {{HUGS}}

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    1. Thank you Aurie for the kind, encouraging, words! My God is so good and I know He has not given up on us or this whole moving process and I refuse to let myself give in and give up on Him!

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  5. Amy, I'm praying for you, sweet friend! Thank you for your kind encouragement that rings true even in such a difficult situation! Above and through the trial, you desire to remain faithful to God. You're heart is beautiful, even though I know it's hurting!
    God used your words today to remind me of His blessings while waiting.
    Sending hugs-
    Jessica

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    1. Thank you Jessica! All I want is to do His will and wait for Him to show us where to go and what to do. He has been so faithful thus far in my life giving me more than I deserve and I feel awful and ashamed to think and feel that He would give up on me now! However, after writing this out yesterday and reading these comments today, I already feel a little lighter! God is oh so very good!!

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  6. So sorry to hear of all your frustrations right now. Praying for you and your family and ALL your little ones.

    "Home" is so important to us, deep in our hearts! I struggled so much with our house at first because it wasn't what I wanted at all and it caused a lot of hurt and tension between my husband and I. When I finally gave it up to God and let him change my heart, I was SO BLESSED by how He grew my understanding of both submission in marriage and what is truly the heart of the home-regardless of how many bedrooms and what color cabinets and counter tops.

    I'm so glad to see you seeking His will as you struggle--I'm sure that will reap blessings "abundantly more than you could even ask." :)

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  7. So sorry to hear of all your frustrations right now. Praying for you and your family and ALL your little ones.

    "Home" is so important to us, deep in our hearts! I struggled so much with our house at first because it wasn't what I wanted at all and it caused a lot of hurt and tension between my husband and I. When I finally gave it up to God and let him change my heart, I was SO BLESSED by how He grew my understanding of both submission in marriage and what is truly the heart of the home-regardless of how many bedrooms and what color cabinets and counter tops.

    I'm so glad to see you seeking His will as you struggle--I'm sure that will reap blessings "abundantly more than you could even ask." :)

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  8. Obviously I am VERY behind in my reading! (At the time I'm leaving this comment, I believe you are off visiting your aunt!) I WILL be praying for continued patience for you as you wait for God's perfect timing. Which frequently stretches us to our limits (and then sometimes beyond.) Having a house on the market IS a huge stress! I will pray. And I will also hopefully anticipate the conclusion of this particular chapter in your life as I'm sure the story will be quite amazing!

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Thursday, April 19, 2012

When the waiting is hard

Six months. 
It's been six months since the first phone call was made.
Six months since the first meeting.
Six months since the papers were signed and it became official
Six months since we took that step of faith. 
Six months...and we are still here!

I'm not going to lie, trying to sell our house has been stressful. Showing after showing I tell myself not to get too excited and too expectant, but it is so hard. So hard not to think that this one person may be it! I am ready to move on. Ready for the next step. Ready to look for our house in the country with trees in the yard where a tire swing can hang! Where my kids can play freely. Where my dogs can run all day! Where {maybe} we can get some chickens and a few goats or sheep! Where we can start living out the rest of our dreams. 

Photobucket

After our most current showing, which was Sunday, I wept. The stress of hearing another, "it's too small", or "they didn't like that it was on-street parking" had finally taken it's toll. I stood by my kitchen sink with the cool breeze blowing my hair all around and let the tears come. I cried out to God for His strength because I was losing mine. I was losing my faith. 

I'm not sure how long I stood there weeping before my husband came in and placed his arms around me. He hates to see me so upset, but immediately he knew why. It was a comfort I needed, just having him hold me. His reassurance that everything was going to work out was kind, but hadn't helped. I was sick of hearing that. Sick of people telling me that it was just not the right time, or the right people! Sick of waiting! 

I want it to be the right time! I want the right people to finally walk through my front door and say "we'll take it"! I want my children to have their own rooms and I want a closet of my own.  I want, I want, I want, I, I, I

I have forgotten! I have lost focus! It is not about what I want and when! And how long have I known this? It is all about His time! His perfect timing and perfect will are all part of His perfect plan! 

But it is hard...waiting! Trusting and believing! A new babe on the way has added to the stress of it. Thankfully, she can sleep soundly next to mama's bed for a while, but there will come a time when she will outgrow that little bed and need a place of her own. Then what? In a two bedroom home, our options are limited. I have all this and more swarming around in my head and I just want it to go! I want to put it all to the side and think only on Him and what He has planned for us! Why is that so hard? Why do we put ourselves through unnecessary stresses when He has it all under control?

Why is it so hard to let go and let God? 

Behold, we consider those blessed who remained steadfast. You have heard of the steadfastness of Job, and you have seen the purpose of the Lord, how the Lord is compassionate and merciful. ~ James 5:11

"When I was waiting quietly for the Lord, His heart was turned to me, and He gave ear to my cry." Psalms 40:1

******************************************

Friends, I would really appreciate some prayers right now! Prayers that I remain faithful and trusting in the One who has given me all...everything! Prayers to have this burden lifted and the stress of it gone! In Jesus Name! 





13 comments:

  1. Amy have you tried a new Realtor? I know they make a big diffrence in selling a house. The right person will come! Just have faith!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Oh how I wish we could get a new realtor, but we are under a 1 year contract! :(

      Delete
  2. Amy,

    I cried right alone with you as I read your post. I know the struggle. Every night the kids pray for the Lord to send someone to buy our house and I put on my brave face and tell them that the Lord is in control and it will happen in his time and not ours...then I tuck them in, leave their room and cry. As my family goes through this tough time of not seeing daddy and sickening amounts in the gas tank each month, I feel like He has broken me down as much as I can be. I can hostly say, as hard as this has been though over the past 9 months, it has been a blessing. God is teaching me everyday and pushing me to new levels I didn't know I could go. I am not saying it is easy! I cry as I type you this, I just repeat Phil. 4:6 to myself and thank God for the struggle that he is using to strengthen me and my family. I don't know the plan he has for my family or yours, but I do know that when I look around me and see all that he has blessed me with I am humbled and amazed. Why has he been so good to me?! I can't wait to see what he has planned for us next, as scary as the unknown is.

    A few verses came across in my devotions yesterday and really struck me that I had to write them down and highlight a few parts. Maybe it will be of encouragement to you as well, 2 Cor. 12:7-10. (My Bible has notes on the bottom and boy were the notes right on for me and what I needed!)

    Your family has been in my families prayers and we will continue to pray for your family.

    -Mindy
    (Sorry so long! :))

    ReplyDelete
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    1. Thank you Mindy! I so wish this was something that was a lot easier...sometimes I wish we would have just rented, but then I come back to reality and realize how awful that would have been! After writing out my little vent here yesterday, I actually felt better. I love the community that blogging provides for I know that I can trust the prayers of those that say they are praying! And I in return am praying for you guys as well! :)

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  3. Good Morning Amy Sweetie...
    Oh honey I can feel your pain this morning. You are definitely in my prayers. I have been silently sitting here storming the heavens with prayers for you and your family. Sometimes it is so hard as a Christian to understand why the waiting, why the pain, why the worries, why the trials? I have been there sweet friend and I know the journey is hard. Sometimes we just want to give up. God makes us stronger with each day. He is preparing us for what lies ahead. This I know.

    I will add you to my prayer list dear one. That house in the country is out there just waiting for the right time. Maybe yours cannot sell right now, as the house in the country is not ready for your family. Prayers,prayers and more prayers sweetie.

    Keep me posted. I am wiping those tears for you as they fall. Many hugs and so much love, Sherry

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    1. Thank you Sherry so very much for your prayers! It is so comforting to know that God sends prayer warriors our way when we need them the most!

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  4. Hey sweet friend!!

    I am no stranger to wanting and wishing and waiting; no stranger to tears and struggle and temper tantrums.

    It's no comfort, but when the time is right the buyer will come for your house, which means you can then find the house meant for you. It could be that the house He has planned for you hasn't been listed it - or that the people who will want your house are just starting to look.

    His plan is perfect - we sometimes just have to wait on His time.

    {{HUGS}}

    ReplyDelete
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    1. Thank you Aurie for the kind, encouraging, words! My God is so good and I know He has not given up on us or this whole moving process and I refuse to let myself give in and give up on Him!

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  5. Amy, I'm praying for you, sweet friend! Thank you for your kind encouragement that rings true even in such a difficult situation! Above and through the trial, you desire to remain faithful to God. You're heart is beautiful, even though I know it's hurting!
    God used your words today to remind me of His blessings while waiting.
    Sending hugs-
    Jessica

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    1. Thank you Jessica! All I want is to do His will and wait for Him to show us where to go and what to do. He has been so faithful thus far in my life giving me more than I deserve and I feel awful and ashamed to think and feel that He would give up on me now! However, after writing this out yesterday and reading these comments today, I already feel a little lighter! God is oh so very good!!

      Delete
  6. So sorry to hear of all your frustrations right now. Praying for you and your family and ALL your little ones.

    "Home" is so important to us, deep in our hearts! I struggled so much with our house at first because it wasn't what I wanted at all and it caused a lot of hurt and tension between my husband and I. When I finally gave it up to God and let him change my heart, I was SO BLESSED by how He grew my understanding of both submission in marriage and what is truly the heart of the home-regardless of how many bedrooms and what color cabinets and counter tops.

    I'm so glad to see you seeking His will as you struggle--I'm sure that will reap blessings "abundantly more than you could even ask." :)

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  7. So sorry to hear of all your frustrations right now. Praying for you and your family and ALL your little ones.

    "Home" is so important to us, deep in our hearts! I struggled so much with our house at first because it wasn't what I wanted at all and it caused a lot of hurt and tension between my husband and I. When I finally gave it up to God and let him change my heart, I was SO BLESSED by how He grew my understanding of both submission in marriage and what is truly the heart of the home-regardless of how many bedrooms and what color cabinets and counter tops.

    I'm so glad to see you seeking His will as you struggle--I'm sure that will reap blessings "abundantly more than you could even ask." :)

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  8. Obviously I am VERY behind in my reading! (At the time I'm leaving this comment, I believe you are off visiting your aunt!) I WILL be praying for continued patience for you as you wait for God's perfect timing. Which frequently stretches us to our limits (and then sometimes beyond.) Having a house on the market IS a huge stress! I will pray. And I will also hopefully anticipate the conclusion of this particular chapter in your life as I'm sure the story will be quite amazing!

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