We have decided to take a step of faith and put our little house up for sale and start the process of looking for our dream home.
This has been something we have been wanting to do since my daughter was born 4 years ago. Living in a two bedroom, ONE closet, home for the past 5 1/2 years has had it's show of challenges. We have outgrown this home long before my precious little man arrived almost 2 years ago.
Having just ONE {yes, you heard me right} closet on our whole house has really been challenging.
"Where do I put everything?"
"How am I going to organize this?"
"I only wish we had more room!"
These are things you would hear coming out of my mouth at any given time over the past 5 years. Sure, this home is not ideal for a growing family, but the memories and love that have been shared here will stick with us for years to come. And it is because of those precious memories that, in a way, I am sad to see us leave.
I am sad and frightened and excited all in one. The emotions I am feeling over this whole situation are a bit overwhelming for me already...and we haven't even officially listed our home yet!
I've given up before I even started!
I have let fear, doubt, and uneasiness enter into my soul and take over where joy, faith, and hope should be. If He is in this, I have nothing to fear.
...and I believe He is. I just haven't been spending enough time listening to know for sure. I have let anxiety enter in which in turn has not allowed me to find rest; to find peace in His presence!
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. ~ Matthew 11:28I am longing for that peace. That reassurance from my Heavenly Father. Reassurance that only He can provide.
I let doubt and fear enter my soul far too often when I am dealing with decisions and stressful circumstances. Instead of resting in Him and trusting Him and allowing Him to work it all out, I tend to feel I can do a better job, when in reality, I obviously know I cannot!
But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. ~ James 1:6
I need to spend the days ahead in prayer. In oneness with Him. Seeking out His direction and plan. I need to stop, focus, and listen!
Will you keep my family and I in your prayers, sweet reader friends, as we go through this process over the next few months?
Truly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and thrown into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him. ~ Mark 11:23
How exciting! Good luck with the process, and try to stay calm :)
ReplyDelete*I* think this is EXCITING! =D Will definitely pray that everything goes smoothly and that God will provide everything in His perfect time. Which you know He will, of course! ;D Changes like this are huge - and I think a wee bit fun. Just not the packing part. But worth it! =D
ReplyDeleteI can understand how change can be scary, and the unknown scarier still...but it can also be fun and exciting! I'm sure it will be challenging, but think of all the nw expieriences you'll have :) And....there's a possibility more closet space is in your future!!
ReplyDeletePraying for comfort, strength, and direction :)
Thanks for this post, Amy. Not only do I pray for you and your family with a the moving process, but I pray you are able to quiet your anxieties daily as you rest in the peace only He can give. These words of yours were ones I was really needing to hear tonight. God was surely using your blog to help little, nerve-wrecked me remember Him on a difficult evening.
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